Pulmonary appointment #2

Very first time in the my lung cancer project, we saw enlarged ct-scanned my lung images and he talked about them friendly and clearly. The biggest cancer tumor, was about an inch, on my right bottom and back of my lung and some smaller ones around my color bone and throat. And hundreds of small little white dots all over the both lungs, look like stars in the sky in Ohio. He said that my lung cancer looks very unusual. (Actually my very first pulmonary doctor in my neighborhood hospital diagnosed me as not cancer after a week hospitalization in earlier May. He said it did not look cancer to him. Hello?! ) There was a small darkest part and that was how healthy lung should look like.

Tagrisso could kill all cancer cells just when it stops working hidden small cancers usually come back. “IF” tagrisso works years on me, I could have a good chance to live longer, so that the way to cure lung cancer could exist( just not yet) since I am still young and strong, have a lot of energy, all other organs look very healthy at this point. Hope that happens to me.:)

He said to me that eat whatever I can and keep the body weight so my body can fight inside of me. Though I lost appetite for side effect of tagrisso, I am feeding myself and not loosing weight last weeks. Good job myself :)

Went to eat meat balls at IKEA, Brooklyn.

Went to eat meat balls at IKEA, Brooklyn.

肺専門医に、息子と2人で会って来た。テレビドラマで見る癌宣告場面みたいな、大きな胸部ct scanイメージ見て、初めて説明された。3cm位の腫瘍が右下後ろに1つ。後、1cm位のが鎖骨上リンパ、喉周りに有る。後は両肺中に夜空のピカピカの星みたいに100以上の小さいのが散りばめられてる。平常の健康な肺はこんな風に黒く見えるんですって言われた黒い部分は、横にほんのちょっとだけ。ステージ4の5年後の生存率5%以下って言うのが有るんだけど、私はどうかと聞いてみた。この数字には一切の治療も施せず亡くなる人、体力の落ちた高齢者も多く含まれる。一方で、私は既にタグリッソと言う新薬が使えている、若く体力が有る、他の内臓は今の時点では健康で有るので、新薬で数年生きれれば、その間に根治方法が見つかるかる可能性が有り(まだ無いけど)、長く生きられる可能性は大きいと。えっと、可能性は有るって事で :) 現実を見ながらも前向きにいくよ。

Pulmonary appointment

This is my first appointment to pulmonary doctor at the hospital where I see my oncologist, who is lung cancer specialist. It seems like very common to have oncologist snd lung doctor. I am very curious how this meeting will be different from oncologist. My son will come with me as he did all others.




Some of members who played together in the band, KureKure, at the art school in Tokyo sent me cool Japanese foods, I meant lots of different and new kinds for me who resides in NY for decades, some are very locals, love them all super thanks! This is the one I was attracted honestly in a second, Amanatto, dried sweet bean that is also from very local from Yamagata prefecture, where all my families are originally from. The drummer at the band, aka Darle, Who is now the president of the local construction company, Yoshida Kensetsu, in Yonezawa area, must be the one who picked this for me. Love you!

Lightly sweetened, cooked and dried red soy beans, Beni Daizu.

Lightly sweetened, cooked and dried red soy beans, Beni Daizu.


東京の美大時代4年間一緒にバンド「クレクレ」でプレイしたメンバー数人が、マジ良い感じの食料送ってくれたぁ。サンキュ! 勿体無いからケッチって食します:) 中でも、開封と同時に私の肺癌の胸にぎゅっと刺さったのが、山形の赤大豆甘納豆! 甘さ控え目で病気の私でもがんがんいける! ああ、嬉しい!私甘納豆大好き:) 今米沢で吉田建設社長やってる、ドラマーのダールのチョイスかと。サンキュ〜! ラブ ユー!

Meeting new PCP today.

I needed to change my PCP. I love my oncologist team at Columbia medical Center a lot. Because my PCP is in different net work, takes extra waiting time to get  referral that is required to see new doctors each time from my insurance company. As a result, it cause over 2weeks of delays for me to start treating my lung cancer stage 4!  PCP who takes my insurance in Columbia network should save time! Today, I will ask to choose a lung doctor for me and make referral for a nutritionist for my consultation, which originally requested over 2weeks ago and my old network was so slow to process that made me mad! Don’t you want me to get better?!  今日、新しいPCPに会います。PCPとは、何か健康に気になる時に、先ず会う医者で、必要に応じて、専門医を紹介してくれる。

今回、肺癌と診断されて、初めの1週間は、感傷的になる暇も無く(1月経った今もまだ)、とにかく何か知ってそうな友人にテキスト/e-mail を書いた。「何をしたらいい?」って。健康が取り柄だったので、出産と年次健康診断しか病院に行ったこと無かったので。大きな苦難を乗り越え(!)95%諦めていたセカンドオピニオンが実現し、結局それが私の選んだコロンビア大学病院肺癌専門医だ。


が、私が普段健康診断に行くPCPとネットワークが違うため、直ぐ飲みたいタグリッソの処方箋出来るのに待たされ、肺専門医、栄養士、生活療法師に至っては、私の肺癌専門医と繋がりのない人材しか選べない?! 少なくとも、今回コロンビアでの経験は、色んな意味で、今まで私が受けていた医療より質が格段に上質な事が分かったので、コロンビア内で私の医療スタッフを固めようと決めた。一度コロンビアに入ると、自分が外から受けるNY特有のストレスが大きく減るのです。人材が優秀で、患者の為に動いてくれ、事がスムーズに進むので。もう既に肺癌ステージ4で、十分病気なので、外からのストレスは出来るだけ減らしたい! これ以上私を病気にしないで!!と言うわけで、PCPを私の肺癌専門医ネットワークから探そうと! ま、一度マジで電話口で泣いた程、一悶着はあったけれど、どうにかシステム上は、無駄な待ち時間無しに行けるのでは無いかと思ってる。 病気に対して、前向きに戦う意思大有りです。


Meeting nutritionist

Very first time experience in my 56 years of life. The nutritionist who works oncology department said that not to lose more weight. She said that add 1or 2 nutritious snacks addition to three meals a day. Use whole milk, add silken tohu, peanut butter or avocado into smoothie since each of my meal is getting smaller and as a result I have lost several pounds last one month. My sense of taste seems like changed since taking tagrisso. I feel too sweet of what I used to enjoy such as bottle of kombucha or ice cream. Rather enjoying blended frozen mango and home made unsweetened yogurt and milk :)

With Susan Gonzalez at Columbia Uni. Medical Center/NewYork-Presbyterian Hospital.

With Susan Gonzalez at Columbia Uni. Medical Center/NewYork-Presbyterian Hospital.